Sunday

dose of rejection...

so this weekend i finally got the courage to say something to a crush...it was an out of sight out of mind type thing. i had a hard crush on him for a while, so those feeling went AWOL. but when i saw him again these feelings resurfaced. granted it was like a kindergarden crush, because i cannot really see myself settling down, wife and kids, picket fence, type deal with him, but he seems like someone hella cool to kick it with and see where it goes. so this weekend i text him with casual conversation, then came out and told him-in so many words-that i had a crushy wushy on him. so after he realized what i was talking about and that i was NOT interested in casual sex he replies that he's not necessarily interested in a relationship right now because he wants to focus on school work, etc. i'm like uhmmmm if that's a cop out just say you're not interested..i'm a big girl i'll be okay. but he said that wasn't it.
i spoke with another male friend and he says that i should not look at it like a REJECTION but what it is...he doesn't want to be in a relationship and probably especially so because i'm "not tryna give up that booty (abstinence post coming soon) (hmmm...how would his answer have differed if i was?)."
i understand rejection is a part of life. i'm not always going to get my way...no matter what i think. i mean i'm not CRUSHED (pun intended) about it...i'm actually 100% over it. just tryna understand the mentality of men. *cliche kanye shrug*

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